Part 17: Level 0
Part 17: Level 0
1/123?/2021
Interplanetary Suicide
Put me in the Skull combuster
Got me with your Lady Luster
All that I don’t ask of you is
please take over me
Send me up right inta orbit
I can take it I’ll obzorbe it
I won’t let a scratch land on you
Not when (it) up to me
There ya go
There ya go
Look at me
Look at me
(Yell speaking as well)
I hope
That you can
Be better
with me
Do you
Hope something
Similar
For me
Do you
Want something
To do with
Me
Guess (maybe 3)
Not
Fuck
{1/?/21}
{Invention of BVX Ritual}
{Arrival of Dice Face/Trioxis}
{The First BVX Ritual}
2/2/21
.Vistti {Stained Glass Oragami}
The stuff that I have to do but don’t want to do is likely something Vistti needs me to do for his.
I’m sure there are things he does that he doesn’t want to do to help me.
I have to return the favor.
Unamable and Kowzy are both nessisary for Pangea but are both always active.
To best peruse Pangea they probably have to be even.
Right now I’m following Kowzy to heavily.
Unamable seems to be longer term happiness shorter term discomfort.
Kowzy seems to be short term happiness longer term discomfort.
We are constantly expecting both short and long term happiness and discomfort.
If they are not balanced the resulting discomfort disproportionately effects more than the happiness.
Seemingly.
If I start giving myself more short term discomfort I will become happier in general.
Once you fall influence to one (seemingly especially Kowzy for me at least) it only becomes easier to fall further influence to it.
There are things that I feel I need to do but I do not want to do.
Everything that I think I should be doing must be some part of Pangea.
Thus not doing it is not best Persuing Pangea.
There are likely things that I do that I think I should not be doing.
Everything that I think I should not be doing must not be part of Pangea.
Thus doing them is not best persuing pangea.
Unamable and Kowzy must not know or have any interest in the idea of Pangea.
As the things I do that I think I shouldn’t be and things I don’t do that I think I should be are likely due to their influence.
One of their influences persuading me away from Pangea.
They are not doing this with evil intent they are just doing what they do.
But I deep down know what is and is not Pangea.
I need to strive for this and do my best to not fall influence to neither Unamable nor Kowzy.
If I follow Pangea I will be happy.
If I do not I will be uncomfortable.
2/3/21
Toxic Octonout (zoologist)
Cosmic octonout
The five smokestacks
I’m not sure if I want to make 5 my favorite number but it seems to show up a bunch
Becoming a cosmic ranger
Toxic transition
Toxic technological catastrophe
Cataclysm
The loudness is a very strange aspect of living
You can do something one time and it can define who you are
You can just stop at places
You can just look like that
You can just dance
You can just blue
You can just black
You can just green
You can just red
Lofe is crazy, what a unique thought
Crusty crawlers
I’m one of these people
Weren’t you already here
I’m not one of those people
I’m one of those who always comes back
I’m pro human
What the fuck is an animal?
He he ho ho
Tha
What the fuck is a zoooooooo
Hitch about a zoooo
Fuck about a zoo
A shol member a shol member
Nothing is getting done
But stuff is happening
Goots in popins
Booty blast
She ain’t a dime she a dollar
{Redacted} right tween her Farquadraseps
{Redacted}
I can fuckin take um
Nom marks
Yadleboth
Aq queulu
These fuckies finna hurt me
Kool and swoozy
2/16/2021 Musical rituals
Vistrian Musical rituals
Songs are not songs.
They are just enhanced audio.
Enhanced visuals.
Enhanced feelings.
Listening to, looking at, feeling, smelling, taisting, the koolest stuff.
Artistic.
The moments in our life that are heightened by something an external sensation of some kind.
Art is somthing that has the ability to improve the life of somthing when that thing interacts with it.
Thus all things can be art.
But all things are not art to everyone.
What is Art to one individual is completely unique from all other individuals.
Nothing can be considered a true piece of art.
There is nothing that is art to everything.
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What about everything?
I don’t know if “everything” is art to everything.
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Nothing is completely devoid of artistic value.
Surround yourself with Art.
Find those who’s lives can be hightened by the art you provide and who’s art hightens yours.
2/25/21
In here with their microscopes
{Redacted}
The late man’s jeans
Clowned youpone
CTA = call to action
Tiny ass toster
I’m here with there microscopes
Snoop in here with there microscopes
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S and we’re all things that I for some reason viewed as out of my control.
It is very much something I have control over and is also something that I can use to my advantage.
I can harness it’s energy.
The energy it provides me is noticeable.
I think it also may make me more willing to doing.
The things I want to do.
Don’t hurt anyone.
{Redacted}
Which I like.
It takes up a bunch of my time that it really doesn’t need to.
I think I can have just as much fun with this control over myself.
Over[{Redacted}].
[{Redacted}] can run that area.
Be the one in controle there.
This energy and this subject are in my brain are major parts.
So they have to be put towards my goal as well.
The energy it provides is significant.
It’s a significant part of my total energy.
So if I don’t use it towards my goal I’m not doing everything I can.
I’m not currently exactly sure how I’m going to use it to get me to my dream.
But it seems so powerful.
Too powerful to ignore.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[{Redacted}]
I think I definitely care about having friends more than getting famous.
I don’t think I would take an opportunity that ment I got famous but lost all my friends.
I think my drive to want to be famous is because I want to be special.
I want to be different.
Maybe wanting to be different in a way that’s surtified and approved as kool be{by} others.
This dream of mine.
My goal in this life.
Means that I will be in control and have to run most of the aspects of my life.
The {Redacted} has a lot of his life decided by other people like when to work.
What I need to do is look around at what systems work the best for other people.
But also remember that what works for most might not be the best for me.
I need to figure out who’s opinions I care about.
Because right now I sort of care about everyone’s opinion.
Friends.
Some friends I care about more than others.
Some I would not grieve if I lost them as a friends.
Others I very much.
X The people who know my name.
C The people who’s names I know.
[{Redacted}]
I’ll have to figure out how to influence their opinions if I end up deciding to care about that.
X Kool people
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Six nundred drip message ( {Redacted})
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Maybe I shouldn’t care or don’t have a need to care about people Iv never talked to.
People Iv never seen.
Peoples who’s names I don’t know.
I have no obligation to care about people who’s names I do not know.
I have no obligation to care about people who’s names I do know but believe that they don’t care about me.
Thus I don’t care about a singular person in this building.
I care about them like rocks.
Would I sing at a rock?
Yes
Would I care what it thinks?
No
{Redacted}
If I do not know someone’s name they are not alive in my [{Redacted}].
Everyone is real and everyone has their own [{Redacted}].
Their [{Redacted}] contains all of the things an individual knows the name of.
They cannot exist in my [{Redacted}] if I don’t know their name.
And I should only care about things within my [{Redacted}].
We all die
I am going to die someday.
I am never garenteed tomorrow.
I could just die at any point and be gone.
I have been gifted with such an amazing thing.
Human life.
It’s the koolest thing I could have ever asked for.
What the fuck am I worried about?
Chill the fuck out [{Redacted}]
Nothing matters.
If something does matter there’s no way of proving it.
There is no true right and wrong.
Everyone is within their right to do whatever they want.
I am allowed to do everything and anything I want to.
I just have to figure out what I want to do.
There are a bunch of random rules but I have a decent understanding of what they are.
The question what is seems as though it is easier to answer than why.
I can never know why.
I will never know why.
And I will never know why.
I can sort of know what is.
There are a bunch of universal rules that apply always to different situations.
All situations can be figured out what’s going on.
What I want is all I know and is all I follow.
The problem is I know that I must have many wants that contradict one another depending on the situation.
But I have general rules for what my wants usually are.
I want pleasure.
I don’t want pain.
IT IS OKAY!!!!!
We all agree we are powerful.
We all agree we are and are going to become the best.
None of us are attempting to make [{Redacted}] less kool.
All of us agree and believe in Pangea.
All of us have the same greater goal.
They may have different ideas of what fun looks like but remember their fun is equal to your fun.
What you think is not better, clearer, truer, more a part of me, less a part of me.
It’s all equal.
It makes no sense to be ashamed.
Other than when it feels good.
I should be proud.
I don’t know why I try and hide it away and push it down, when all of the logic I can sort of gain a grasp on in this life point to it being good for me. And being a good thing.
There is no reason to be ashamed of one over another.
Their all the same.
They are all just as nasty.
They are all seen as gross and hot to the same amount of people with only some minor fluctuations.
We are not going to be as strong as we can if we are pushing some aspects down.
We are strongest when we accept and push all parts of ourselves.
{Redacted}
[{Redacted}]
For some reason.
I decided not to deal with a bunch of this stuff because I liked the idea of when I couldn’t do somthing I wanted to do I would get angry and really angry.
Which will likely happen.
It has been seen to effect me in a mentaphysical. (mentally and physically) [{Redacted}]
It’s not kool.
It also sounds awful.
Wanting to do stuff I’ll never be able to do sounds so boring and awful.
We should only want what we can do in the now.
As there is no way it’s not what’s happening.
[{Redacted}]
Why?
I feel like maybe it could be better than it is.
Yeah well they could be a little {Redacted} but their not.
[{Redacted}]
~~~,,
Fokalin
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Now some hard stuff.
How I look / what I’m made of is.
Just the bad I have been delbt.
It’s never gunna be anything else.
I don’t see anything wrong with what I see.
It’s actually a really good hand.
I honestly don’t think I could ask for a better one.
I like it all the best the way it is.
B!NGO is always {Redacted} because we are the same.
So he will be the same and agree.
There are not many things that I can use my disability for.
Few things where it helps.
But I don’t have to take them up just because they are there.
They can think it’s not as good all they want. But mine is better in so many situations.
[{Redacted}]
These things are calculated Ws.
Falling in love with myself?
Is that allowed?
What does it mean?
I feel like it’s a calculated W.
Being attracted to somthing you have total control over.
Complete both at the same time.
[{Redacted}]
I can be my own self sustaining love system.
Nothing wrong with that (bitch) I don’t think.
[{Redacted}]
This is kinda weird.
Kinda weird for [{Redacted}]
I didn’t assume it would go to this.
[{Redacted}]
Fall in love with myself.
Make sure the best for me.
(Possibly)
Iv gonna learn from myself before I can go on to someone else.
I’ll always be there.
[{Redacted}]
That doesn’t matter.
That isn’t relevant to my dream.
{Redacted}
[{Redacted}]
We can fall in love.
{Redacted}
We can make our own.
That’s just how I fuckin role baby.
This is my fucking life.
I’m gunna do what feels great and I’m gunna love it.
Because when I’m gone it’s all gone for me. {?}
I feel like I’m probably strongest in love with myself.
Oh yeah
That’s power
It’s allowed
The only thing holding me back is I think just the idea of being allowed to.
It seems so powerful.
Why am I allowed to have it?
{Redacted}
—————
(Anouther day)
Both yin and yang are nessisary and equal?
I’m in the middle with stakes in the edges of each.
Maybe I’m on the outside border?
{Redacted}
It’s really fun to feel bad about that but In honesty it doesn’t really matter.
There is no need to hold back [{Redacted}]
Pull up a chair.
I accept you.
Or at least I am trying to.
3/6/2021: Vistrian Level 0
I have passed level 0 of becoming the Vistrian
20 day streak {BVX and BB}
Started 2/11/2021
Passed 3/5/2021
There was a 3 day weekend vacation 26th 27th and 28th of february.
What has happened with Vistrianism so far?
Before this I'm not sure what Vistrianism counts as. It is when it got its name and its symbol.
I became aware of its possibility.
Although I am not sure how to value what I believed to discover.
It is also when Vistti got his form.
There have been other periods.
Before 10th grade.
Beginning of 10th grade to end of 11th grade.
End of 11th grade until the death.
This was all one period with different points within it.
The Death of Vistrianism:
Started 9/10/19 (like around 7PM)
Lasted until the {Re:} birth.
It died a slow death.
It raged.
Although as it died it created.
It lit a spark in me.
And I began to create.
26/27th of December 2019. {B!NGO Took Controle?}
I wrote Snakes Teeth Eyes
I wrote ~GodHead
I wrote Pen!s Williams
I wrote ~Leviathan
I started Des Guilts
The Re:Birth of Vistrianism
18/19/20th of December 2020
Tricontinental Gridlock
The releasing of the Tricontinental Gridlock and the formation of Pangea
The Formation of the Tri
What am I now trying to achieve?
What do I want to achieve next?
How do I want to improve?
What do I want to be?
How do I want to become that?
What do I want to happen in this life?
How do I want to make them happen?
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